can i put my hope on you?

sayang...

if the rains was fall u could see that but the rain in the heart is be facing by myself only...
i am afraid!
afraid of losing you
afraid of hating you
and afraid of hoping on you

but i never afraid to fall in love with you
so,syg now could you tell me....
can i put my hope on you???

i afraid if the times you forget who i am you may leave me...
if that happens i am not afraid on u leaving me
but i am afraid of the losing some faith to love
i am afraid if i being cruel to someone who love me more that u love me
i am afraid if i could not forgive you

i really afraid...
so now syg,
could you hold my hands and give me some shine over our relationship?
even it may sound fake i bear to face it...
i really afraid with that!

i afraid if my heart cannot longer forgiving you
i am afraid if the times came i cannot accept you...
and i really afraid if i may hate you in the way i love you...

because i cannot lie to myself when i am telling you that i hate you while the fact is i love you....
please convince me!
~sigh~

what happen to me?

what happen 2 me?
knp tba2 ja mlm ni neves semcm dgn result exam+degree nie?
huhhhu

hopefully smuanya dipermudahkn...
amin...

amni...
jgn rsau
u da wat yg terbaik kn?
so now leave it to Allah
He knows what the best for us....

pliz doakn sy yerkwn2
:)

after 16 years...

salam 2 all of u...

1st of all bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi sbb dgn kurniaNya sy msih hdup hr nie...

smlm was my kemas2 blik day...
jdi sy pon mgemas blik sy....
hbuk plus daki2 dah dicuci dgn jyanya
pas dah kmas blik ap g...
sy pon kmas la almari sy yg mcm tongkang pecah tue...
strt dr pkul 9 pgi smpi la 3 ptg bru la smua bnda2 2 da sttle...

after that g mkn knduri...
ms otw g kdnuri 2 sy da rs hdung sy ni sesak semcm
n ms blik 2 sy gtaw la abah sy yg kahak sy x cair
pas2 abah sy mnx sy mkn ubat nani sy yg pecah kahak 2...dgn pnuh kompidennya sy pon cekik la ubat 2 dgn jyanya
n then after that ms mlm 2 sy n fmily nk g perlis since spupu sy sunat...
ms otw 2 dkt area2 kuala perlis sy rsa ssak nafas gla...
berbekalkan mnyak cap kpak yg kakak sy bwk sy pon spau la kt dada
alhamdulillah da ok skit...
ms blik dr perlis 2 tba2 sesak nafas 2 ad g
sy cba ltak mnyak cap kpak gak xp x berkesan...sy da cuak!
sy pon ckp la kt mama n abah sy yg nk g klinik...xp ms 2 dah dkt2 pkul 11.30 pm, klinik ape ja nk bkak g...huhuhu...pas2 kakak sy bg cdgn suh g KMC...(hospital swasta)
sy ckp la kt mama n abah sy yg kmc mhal..n sy bg cdgn suh g hospital besa ja...
but abah n mama sy ckp tkut rmi org kt hsoptl krjaan...
pas2 htr kakak sy n anak2 dia n hsbnd dia blik,sy,mama n abah trus g KMC 2..huhu
ms nk 2nggu 2 kna isi borang la pulok since sy x pnah ad rkod g kt sna...
borang x nk pjg plak kn...
da mcm isi borang upu la pulok...
hahahah

pas2 ms jmpa doktor...
DOKTOR SAHKAN SY KENA LELAH blik...
sbb dlu ms bdak2 sy mmg ad hstory lelah...
huhuhu
pas2 kna la pam gas...
bnda alah ni la kn smbat kt hdung sy
pas da kna pam gas..alhamdulillah sy ley brnafas...huhuhuh...
payment x yah ckp la...
u ollz tgk sdri la bil nie...huhuh
bg sy sgt2 mhal but da g specialist kn?o hrga pon sgt2 la SPECIAL...


kesimpulannya...len x jgn hntam kromo
mkn ubat tah pape...huhhu
n finally after 16 years sy kena serang lelah...huhuhuh
hopefully lelah ni smntra je...
:(

edited blog day

salam 2 all of u...

bgn je pgi nie tb2 sy rs yg bckgrnd blog sy sgt2 x cntik.
hehehehe
lalu sy bertekad untuk tukar bckgrnd blog sy
~asal skema sgt ayt aku nie?~
ok2
back 2 the story...
lpas 2 sy pon bkak la pyzam pnya bncgrnd
smua sy bka
dkt 3 jam jgak la memilih smpi da fed up!
stu pon x mnrik de hati
pdhal smua bckrnd 2 cntik kot...
tah sjak bla sy jdi sgt2 crewet x thu la
huhuhu
pas2 sy google search cri bckgrnd dr site yg lain...
jmpa la dr stu site ni
honestly smua bckgrnd dia cntik
kt sni sy jdi rmbg mata la plak
eheheh
pas2 sy pon plih bckrnd yg ada bung ros berduri pagar nie...
bg sy bckgrnd ni cntik d antra trcntik
lpas da aplih bckgrnd...ggih la sy copy n paste url smua gadgets kt blog sy ni dlm word
after da install bckrnd nie...bru la sy edit blik gadget mcm sedia kala...
aishhh
ssah btul bla da plih bckgrnd yg cntik xp gadget kna remove byk2
huhuhu
xp sy x nk remove gadgets sy...
so sy wat la keje copy n paste 2...
strt dr pkul 8 pgi n smpi skg duk edit x hbs2 lgi...
insyaAllah dlm pkul 2 ptg stg selesai la kot keje2 mengedit nie
eheheh...

hopefully all of u will enjoy my new blog "face"...
:)

kata dulang paku serpih...

hahahaah...
sja nk mulakn post dgn gelak
dlu ad la sorg mamat ni pnah ktuk2 sy kta yg sy ni senang-senang trma cnta...
n now
sy sgt2 terkejut sbb dia pon lgi snang trma cnta
euwwww
so disgusting...
2 la
len kali sblm nk kta org
tgk dri sdri dlu
awk igt awk bgus sgt ke?
klu awk nk kta org xp awk x buat mcm 2 x pela
see
kn da kna btg hdung sdri...
sptutnya compare 2 awk ktuk2 sy
awk sptutnya mendoakn sy...
ape la awk ni...
hahahaha

yg pling kelakar
that day ms sy chat dgn awk,bknmain beria2 ktuk sy kn
knon yg bkal awek awk ni x ska brcnta smasa stdy
n now ap cerrrrr?
bkn ke dia tgh brcnta smbil stdy
bongkosss la awk nie
wat statement membodohkn dri sdri
ish2...

pling x ley blah nk ktuk sy kn
knon bkal awek awk ni anak pak imam
bkn sy nk rendah2kn pak imam
but nk gtaw la...
ap cer anak pak imam x pki tdung????
hahahahaha
len x sblm nk kta org tgk dri sdri dlu
ya abah sy bkn pak imam atau tok kadi
but abah sy wali yg sempurna untuk sy
so ap lgi yg sy perlukn?
skrg2nya abah n mama sy ddik sy dgn agama wlaupn mama sy bkn ustazah n abah sy bkn imam
2 la MHY...
len x jgn nk ktuk org
tgk dri sdri dlu

ke dis gurl org len?
mna la taw kot2 anak pak imam x nk kt awk kn?
mna la thu...
sy x de niat nk hina awk
but snce awk pnah ktuk sy
so i think i desrver to do smtgh lke that 2 u 2...

so 2 u...
nk ckp la...

KATA DULANG PAKU SERPIH,
KATA ORANG AWAK YANG LEBIH...

so 2 all of u
jgn ikt prgi kji org ni...
ska2 ktuk org
n then dia pon wat bnda yg sma
huh~
sekian~~

p/s :mhy stnd for someone that had existed in my life long2 tme ago

penyakit selepas banjir...

salam 2 all of u...

in about early of november
as we know utara n pntai tmur msia dilnda bnjir yg sgt2 truk...
smpikn mkn masa lbh krg 2-3 mnggu utk air bnjir srut kmbali

now alhamdulillah after a few weeks ura2 gelombang ke 2 it's only de rumours...
sbb skg ni keadaan trkwl
syukur sgt2...
but unfortunately...
after bnjir byk pnykit yg ada...
for instance
*loya
*muntah
*cirit-birit
*perut meragam
*sakit otot

*DEMAM...

mst smua plik knp sy besarkn n boldkn prktaan demam?
sbb i am one of the victim of this type of fever...
remember dat day sy ad tulis post psal demam?
ms 2 alhamdulillah da shat dah...
n now sy kna demam lgi...
bkn sy sja...
blh ktakn whole of my family...
kakak,mama,adik,hafiz smua kna...
but mama pnya demam da x truk da...
alhamdulillah

even mr syg pon kna dmam
ap cer?
bkn stu umah pon
so mmg trbkti la kn demam2 yg tgh mlnda nie is pnykit after bnjir...
honestly x selesa taw...
yg pling x selesa sbb selesema...
smpikn sy nk berfb pon ditemani tisu...
pasni kna cuci lappy dgn sanitizer dettol la gmaknya...

dah la 2...
org len mkn ubat smkin mngantok
sy mkn ubat smkin x mngntok
tme x mkn ubat lak yg ngantok
nk sabotaj ke ap nie?
hahahaah
as a result beronline la sy spnjg mlm n mnemani mlm2 dgn fb dan blog terchinta ini...

ditambah lagi dgn batuk2 yg truk nie...
adoiyaiii
bknnya sy mengeluh sbb skit
sy thu skit 2 ley kifarah dosa
tapi sy x selesa dgn demam n selsema plus batuk ni...
smua aktvty sy trbatas
nk g mna2 pon kn pkir 2-3 x
ye la
x kn nk sebarkn pykit kt tmpt len lak kn?
huhuhu

so...
tlg doa2kn bg sy cpt shat yer...

konvo adik